A READING from: "In The Company of The Holy Mother"
(available at all Vedanta Centres)
Mother said: "When I went to see Lord JagannAtha at Puri, I wept with joy at the sight of so many people come to see the Lord. I thought how good it was that so many should find salvation. In the end, however, I realized that only one or two would find it, those who had mastered desire. When I told Jogen (Jogin-Ma) about this, she too agreed with me."
Another morning as I sat in the Mother's veranda eating puffed rice, I asked her, "Mother, should one take the sannyAsin's vows if one stays at the Math?"
Mother answered, "One should." I said, "But one is likely to be filled with vanity if one does so." She replied, "Yes, one gets vain and expects veneration from everybody. It is much better to remain as I am (pointing to her white cloth). Gaur Shiromani of Vrindaban took sannyAsa (the monastic vow) in old age, when his desires had lost their intensity. It is very difficult for a monk to get rid of vanity, my son, the vanity of good looks, talent, and learning."
She urged me to prepare myself for renunciation. "Go home this time and tell your brothers that you are not going to take a job. Tell them that since your mother is no longer there, you cannot lead a life of slavishness. Such a life is not for you. Ask them to be happy in the worldly life."
(to be continued....)