A READING from: "In The Company of The Holy Mother"
(available at all Vedanta Centres)
Udbodhan (Mother's Room), 21 February, 1912: "How the disciples
crowd here all day," I said to Mother, "you never get any rest!"
"Day and night I say to the Master," Mother replied, "'Master, lessen this burden, let me have some rest' - but nothing happens. It will go on like this for the rest of my days....I keep telling them, 'Go, take your initiation from your family guru, they expect it, I expect nothing.' But they will not leave me; they weep and I feel sorry for them. My days are limited, it will be like this as long as I am here."
"No, No, why should you say such things?" I cried, "You are keeping quite fit. You have no particular ailment. Then why should you wish to leave us? Don't say such things."
For some days, Mother had been feeling detached and melancholy.
Golap-Ma was arguing with somebody downstairs.
"Now what is all this argument about?" Mother asked.
"Golap-Ma is sputtering something," I said.
"One shouldn't lose oneself so much in sputtering," Mother said. "If one sees the worst of everything, one feels pain. Golap has got into a habit of speaking the truth that she no longer cares about what others will think. I, on the other hand, still care. One should never indulge in unpleasant truths."
(to be continued....)